There will be an answer, let it be.

I don't know how to explain my recent life.......I got bek to my room last nite, and it was in a mess .... thats not the point I wana say, but its jz a signification of my life, recent life.

yea..my life is like so messed up recently...I couldn't make decision in hell lots of things. Things changed or me, myself changed? sometimes, i was wondering, wondering how everything could be happened?... who should i blame ? what shoud i do? what feeling should i have?......

I had make a wrong decision once before, yea...it's me...the one who making a wrong decision, so the conclusion is, I m the one who causing everything to the end, right?

living as a human without soul, how does it feel? I guess right now, i feel it so damn much. Our life is all bout losing, we had lost our time, money, energy and wadsoever like almost everyday, but we just never take it seriously. That is because, we had get used to it, we used to spend money everyday, we used to spend time everyday , we USED TO..yea..used to........a very very fucking bad habbit, as like what my friend had told me before.

But what if.....losing a friend?.......a friend who used to be with, a friend who know u well, a friend who will be there with you no matter you are up side down....a friend.........a real friend who you treasure.

I had lost a friend once before in my Uni life, I had expected that things will turn out that bad before i had really made my move to start the conversation with her. We should know that, some words just can't keep too long in heart, it will cause us injury. I feel sorry, I feel bad, but that is fact......which we can't get along with each other that well.

sometime, emptiness kills. sometime, happiness seems to be so far away. sometime, i wish that is a night mare, a real long night mare.

"There will be an answer, let it be""

静，安。

这几天里，
生活仿佛很平静，
我没有平日的多话，
没有平日的雀跃，
只管坐在电脑前，不停的做着自己该在预期内赶完的设计，
尽管周遭的人，正嘻哈玩乐。

忽然间很想念公司附近的漫画店，
一个能让我完全释放自己情感的角落，
我确实爱上了那里，那里的安静，和那里的气息，
偶然周杰伦的歌曲会随之播放，
感觉，更为真实。

最近也爱上了一个白色部落格，
总会定时留滥，
因为里头的文字，
距离我心，很近，很近，
一颗忙于等待，而不停错过的心。

我们还是一样，
以无言的方式，
结束一天该有的对话，
是什么原因，让我们沉默，
是什么原因，让我难过。
也许，我们都习惯了，
夹在我们中央，平静的沉默。

还有多少个明天，将会在沉默中度过，
我不懂，
但我的心，
也随之空了一大载。

once a while....

Once a while, i was there, blaming cyberjaya as it was such a deserted place,
once a while, I wish i can get out from this city to have so much fun outside,
but now, yea yea yea!! i started to miss cyberjaya already!!
no doubt, cheras is like a so strategic place to all of the places around Kl,
but still i feel.....i need like alot lot frenss around me....alottttt :D

missss my windy yet cold living place,
miss my sipek sampat coursemates,
miss the non-stop assignments (maybe),
miss the meeting period with my CLS members,
miss the playground which i used to be there whenever i was down,
miss the malay nasi goreng ayam,
miss everything, everyone :(

yey!! soon i will be bek again:D
cyberjaya, the places where giving me lotsa memoriesss v all of u guyssssss :D

I will fully appreciate my study life once b4 i graduate, seriously will :D

remind me if i am not keeping this promise well someday kie? :P

heyhey, u guys...happie intern okie ?:D ( er wait.....nt include stella mui :P )

my current housemates, love u guyssss :D ( aiya...tongyao is holding camera tim ><"" )

过度期。

这只是个过度期，
较难熬的过度期。
度过了，
我们也就恢复了，
因为，
我誓言，
要和你做一对永远能交心的最佳对象，
永远。

EVERYTHING WILL BE REAL FINE SOON , VERY SOON...:D :D :D

"鱼" 快 的下午 -_-"

难得一天提早收工，我们决定到附近的湖边钓鱼。

没错，是钓鱼！

我本身是个没什么耐心的人，所以我和之琦做在湖边嘻哈大笑，
当然，这行为是不对的，因为会吓跑所有的鱼儿。

风景很明媚，小孩很调皮，父母很惊慌，鱼儿四处游，
那个下午的写照，一个接近零度压力的写照，

有种忙里偷闲的感觉，一种很棒的感觉。

景色。

牺牲小我的鱼饵。

那个下午休闲的我们。


我钓钓钓！！

很可怜的上钓之物，善哉善哉 o_o

是你变了吗?

还是

我变了?
从前的我们到哪去了?

灰。

最近，

心情可以在仅仅一秒之内反覆无常，
很容易遭周遭的事物影响，
虽然，只是皮毛之肤的小事，
令人不堪提起的小事。

我比任何人更加痛恨这样的自己，
容易陷入黑灰地带的自己，
我开始渐渐明白一些我从来都不敢去想或触碰的事情，
开始明白了这样的安排背后的正在意义，
坚持或放弃，仿佛已不再是我范围里所能控制的事情，
那种感觉，
无助，沮丧，和，空白，

我，空白。

日子久了，
才贸然发觉，
有些事情已开始变质，
没有从前的新鲜，
没有从前的色彩，

无法挽回的从前，
夹在记忆里，
等待，
永远。

jogoyaaa deii :D

spent tongyaooo birthday at jogoya. Its my 1st time been there. Tongyao bring us go through one round so dat we know which section for which foodssss :D

I was like super excited when see all kind of .. of................superb good-looking foods :D I cant wait to eat themmmm :D

Tongyao was like so happie and touch with the present from chyi. It is a SEIKO watch, which he had dream for long longggggggggg time :D i gt effort in getting this watch also de yea even i gt no spend even 1 cent for it :P

hmmm.....the foods was like.........ok lar~~.........nth much comment cz i was like so full dat nite after just few rounds......only few roundddss.....wad a waste ....istk istk!!!....... but anyway, its a good try :D ( trying so hard to convince myself..wuhuuuu )

after few glasses of wine, we started to talk nonsense and joking around like no ppl arounds......mostly becoz we r little bit drunk .... its jz becoz we have them in one shot and non-stop :D hah.......suddenly miss clubbing so much...but got no time, got no energy for it anymore, at least for nw....TT

went to pavilian for our HANCOOK movie...istkkk..the movie wasn't that nice as what we had expected..... nx time shud not expect too high for a thing, else, will feel so much disappointed as it not reaching the target. The feeling was like, so sux....TT

Its almost 3 a.m while we on our way bek home. HOLLY SITTTT !! tomorrow we still have to wake up early for work........*bless bless*

end :D

tongyao v chyi the cute couple -_-"

prettie de chyi v me

yorr!! sit so far away!!

yey...he is the cute birthday boyyy :D ( not concentrating when taking pic v me as he is still holding his food TT )


chyi v hongyiiii

me v hongyyiii

the watch the watch!!! :D